Life is amazing, it really is...ups and downs..twists and turns ..scars and burns and things like that..Its incredibly boring sometimes, like last night. I did nothing but stare at the wall, for two whole hours. Finally my senses came back in place and i thought i should make something useful and productive out of my time.What i did was nowhere near productive or useful but it was fun.I decided to go back in time and search how many times have i said "she is so beautiful" and actually meant it. I know its completely random but i had nothing else to do, i think.So, i started searching for my first " she is so freaking beautiful" memory and the results were pretty amazing.I could see me eight or nine years back, wearing white shirt tucked inside a perfectly creased half pants, side parted hair, oval glasses and white socks with black shoes.I cant lie, i was pretty adorable at that time.I was studying entitle Angels' School,5Th grade, Section B, the best school in Nepal and i had a crush on my class monitor.I saw myself running towards a bunch of girls who were busy devouring their lunches, i don't think they were really hungry or ever cared about lunch by their own will, they were forced.If they didn't finish their lunch on time, the teacher would surely finish them,not the lunch fool, the kids. I can feel the pain, been there done that. I don't know what got into me, the little me, i went close to a girl and whispered "Hey, that girl is freaking beautiful". The next thing i know ,she was furious. Then i noticed her left hand coming towards my left cheek ,at like 120 miles per sec and BLAAMMMM!!! yes , she slapped me.HARDCORE.I don't know why she did it,but she did and i got slapped by a girl for the first time in my life (excluding my mom and sister).It will always be a mystery but its history so i don't care. Lets move on.Next time i found myself in 11th grade, 2006 baby!!! This going back to memory thing is just like time traveling without a time machine. Only flaw is, u cant do anything to change what happened when u travel back memory. Whereas in time travel things might be different( i don't know, i haven't travel back in time yet, when i will do it i will be more than happy to share my experiences).Meanwhile back in 2006, it was the last day of exams and i was planning to beat the hell out of this kid, saurib or sauresh or whatever the freak's name was. I hated St. Xaveirs School. However, the irony was that, my best buddy was in that school. My friend was a good guy. I had no intentions of making him look like an a jerk but my actions always spoke in a reciprocal manner.So i finished my exam and came out of the hall, i felt like a beast freed from 1000 yrs of imprisonment. I was ready to beat the hell out of that dude, i can not remember his name all i remember is he was ugly, had body order and looked like a douche bag. When i came out of the gate i saw this BEAUTIFUL GIRL standing by the cafe with her friends. I was numb for like a minute or so, her beauty left me spellbound. I used to deny that angels existed but she proved me wrong.Her face had this strange glow in it, the glow that influences people to do good stuff, the glow that makes do moral stuff. For a second i thought how beautiful a human can actually be and my plans to beat this kid completely faded from my mind.I started walking towards her. I didn't know who she was?where she was from? what was her name? literally nothing about her and i didn't really cared at that point. I cant exactly remember what i said but i definitely said this"HEY , I AM IMPRESSED. YOU ARE VERY BEAUTIFUL".She was shocked, 440 volts, but she talked back, she actually thanked me for my compliment and we became friends. So no slaps this time, thank heavens( if there is a heaven, that is). I felt stupid after she left. I wanted to kick myself, i even did. I could never apologize to her for my sudden irrational , barbaric behaviour so via this note i want to apologize, i am sorry ... i didn't mean to say those stuff but i had no choice, your beauty left me hypnotized.So excluding all my ex girlfriends there were only two girls that i actually thought were beautiful .I never knew my choices were so limited. But hey! that's me and there is nothing you can do about it.Thank you for wasting your time and to all the ladies out there, even though i never say it YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.

Via this i want to know what you all think about how i felt at that time and respond what i should have done.